Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Eeekkk! I Need Help!

I don't know about you but life demands have sent me on a overwhelming spin. I am having a very hard time with working, homemaking, parenting, marriage, healthy living, and being in ministry. This year I began to work at a Christian School for my kids. This is what my husband wanted and we felt we needed this for the kids education. They have grown in leaps and bounds and I am so thankful they are in a Quaint Christian Educated school and I get to be with them.

But LADIES.....I can't get a grip on it all. Laundry, cooking, bill paying, menu planning, trying to get healthy, prayer time, visiting church members, playing with kids, and being a "WIFE"! You know!

The thing is I have homeschooled (8 of the 13) and stayed at home for over 13 years and I had years I felt I was off balance. But with a little motivation and planning I usually jumped right back in.

NOT THIS TIME!  Any tips on housecleaning, organizing, and balance rather you are a work at home mom, work outside the home mom, or homeschooling/ministry mom please share!!!!!!!

Thursday, January 22, 2015

From the Heart of a Pastors' Wife

This is my first post in this series, "From the Heart of a Pastor's Wife" and before I start digging in I will share a little of our background.

My husband and I have been in ministry in different levels for over 16 years. My husband has been a Pastor for over 3 years now. I am complete NOVICE. But I was able to serve under a great Pastor and Wife for 11 years so I learned quite a lot and God has a way to equip you!!!  I plan to post weekly about my thoughts, tips, and mistakes (oh, there are many) as the help meet to my husband as he Pastors.

Three years ago we answered a call to step out in faith and move to a small rural community and begin to Pastor.  We were excited, scared, and powered up with Faith that great things were going to happen in this church and our lives. The first year went wonderful.  Growth, salvation, and baptisms taking place!!!  People of the church supporting us and beginning to grow.  But I on the other hand began to see the task at hand very overwhelming.  I was a homeschool mom to 3 kids, and homeschooling &  mothering young children was my season.  I also was not prepared for the challenges in my own heart that would take place to make me a better servant in this role. I also was not prepared for the Fish Bowl life.

I loved homeschooling! I loved homemaking! I loved being in the back scenes of serving in a church! I loved helping and blessing and nobody knowing! I loved being able to not be upfront! I am outgoing but I didn't realize the intensity of the Fish Bowl life until my husband became a Pastor.

We are very radical and kingdom minded. We had a shady past and the Lord casted our sins as far as the East is to the West. We don't forget how covered we were with nasty sin and how the Lord washed us, saved us and blessed us with a life unimaginable. What I quickly found out in ministry and serving others is how often people don't have that same intensity you do.

Two of my kids were excited about our new life.  One had a totally different opinion and still has a hard time. My oldest is our biggest support even though he has had it pretty rough in the Fish Bowl experience.

Next time I will share ways we have learned to live in the Fish Bowl.


Wednesday, January 21, 2015

When Moving Forward Seems Like You Are Going Backwards

As you all know my "word" I wanted to use for this year (2015) was FORWARD. Oh my goodness...it feels like I have went backwards. It is so funny because every time I get on "track" I end up going backwards, detoured, or derailed for that matter.

I was griping and moaning to the Lord about it becoming so frustrating and I was TIRED of trying to move FORWARD  when all I was going to do was go back 4 steps. It hit me. My life isn't always about constant moving FORWARD without stops and detours along the way. Maybe the real test or shall I say issue isn't really the fact that I keep falling down the ladder. Maybe its the process of pushing through, moving forward no matter what. Maybe its not about moving forward and always having it smooth this year. Maybe the Word I felt led to choose and study was about going Forward through rain, sunshine, joy-filled abundance days, sad broken heart days, storms, and calm. 

I am going to stop thinking I am a failure or that my life is on a hamster wheel of mess. I am going to look at detours, pit stops, and ladder of life slips as part of the process of moving Forward.

What about you do you ever feel like this?

Monday, January 12, 2015

Let Us Make More Words Out of FORWARD








My 2015 Word is FOWARD!  I plan to do a word study on each word. I also have scriptures to wrap all this up. I am so thankful for Jesus' love and direction.

I believe FAITH is an appropriate word to start with when it comes to moving FORWARD!

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Release...A Part of Moving Forward

Sometimes to move FORWARD you have to RELEASE. RELEASE what holds you trapped down. RELEASE those chains of regret! Chains of CONTROL! Trying to CONTROL causes set backs. Remember....we are trying to move FORWARD!  God is the one that has to have control. 

You can keep trying to grip your life and hold it so tight that you actually don't live. You risk suffocation. I don't want to suffocate in my failures. I don't want to keep bucking the Will of God.

Joy comes when RELEASE happens. Your feet and Soul can move FORWARD!

 Let us cross the Bridge of Release. Let us raise our hands to heaven WIDE OPEN!  Throw your head back and feel the chains fall off. Feel the BREEZE on your face. The SOUL and MIND becomes clear. Give it all to JESUS. Laugh! Cry!  Heaven Sake let us Dance. We are free! Free from micro-managing, regrets, and high expectations!

I am MOVING ON! FORWARD! I want to acknowledge GOD in all my ways and I can......WE CAN.....be directed in our PATH!

Love You ALL!

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Tuesday, December 30, 2014


My soul aches for freshness.  I feel engulfed with trials and defeat. Oh, failures swirl in my mind over and over. I feel the broken spiritual bones crying for healing and strength. Dreams and Visions this past year that danced around my head as sugar plums puffed into thin air.

Before you think I am the MOST NEGATIVE DEPRESSING person in the world, I beg you to consider different. David wasn't always cheerful, Elijah, nor Peter.  These men as well as many more all battled, including Job, times of despair and depression. Lessons are learned for spiritual growth in these seasons. I was/am in that season.

Psalm 34:18 "The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. (Crushed in spirit)"

So, while I moan I know that God is NIGH.  I am ever thankful for that. I would be stuck in that pit of regret, failures, and mess without Him reaching for me and pulling me out.

This past year I felt as if I was in the Valley of Decision. Decision to hold on. To keep on. To move on. My family, our church, and my friends all have had valley moments. But in the valley there is hope because you can only go up from that point.

This year my ONE WORD is FORWARD. Inspired by Ann Voskamp's recent post on the New Year gave me that "Aha" moment. Every year since 2005 I have a word and scripture I reflect on yearly. This year I decided I wouldn't even go there. I didn't feel it. Didn't know. Tired of never going through. But one email gave me a little hope that I can move one.

This year I want to move FOWARD. I want to move out of the Valley. I want to Keep going!  I hear the song "Onward Christian Soldier" playing in my mind. I am moving FORWARD & ONWARD for a higher calling than myself.  I want to Glorify God!  Move Forward in Jesus!

Sunday, September 21, 2014

I is for Intimate

The gift of intimacy with God is the best gift ever. I am so thankful to know the Lord personally.  I have a maker, He formed my heart, and my life is in His Hands. He knows my name, He knows my every thought, He sees each tear that falls, and hears me when I call.
                             Replica of the Tree of Good and Evil at Creation Museum

That song is so beautiful.  He knows my name. It is true!  He knows our very amount of hair on our heads, He knows our thoughts, and our so-called "hidden" secrets that aren't at all really hidden. 

The most beautiful precious gift is the intimacy of being in His presence.  I love feeling the breezes on my face because I know it is Him.  I love the sound of nature because I know it is Him. I love the splendor of the night sky because I know its His taste of beauty. 

                                        Creation Museum Gardens of Beauty!

Lord may we embrace your desire to be intimate with us.