Hello friends. I hope you all are well. I need prayer my friends. My heart is heavy!
I need God to give me direction. I feel like I have been praying and praying and there is just no direction. I need direction!
We have to find a way to begin paying towards debt. But Therapy for Hannah is going to cost $240 a month!!!!!!!!!!!! After we pay our bills, buy food, and gas we have a little more than that leftover.
This money we have been trying to put towards debt but now we will have to relocate it to her therapy for dyslexia (tutoring).
I have tried to cut the groceries as much as I know but it seems like it just keeps getting harder and harder to do.
The dyslexia center wants me to change up Hannah's curricula that we use but we are in March and almost done with our school year and things seem to be going okay. Even though she is behind she was still progressing. The thought of trying to start over and buy new stuff is overwhelming and to be honest we don't have the funds to buy new stuff.
I am having major digestive issues and my anxiety and depression are super heavy at the moment. I don't want to think, clean, read, or even blog. That is when I know I have to push and do it anyway.
I am sorry to be transparent but I need prayer from my blog friends. I truly know you pray when you say you do. I hope this doesn't make you think less of me. I am just weary and truly need prayer and encouragement.
The money thing and debt ways heavy on me. We were debt free before we went to Pastor (we no longer pastor at this time) and due to unforeseen circumstances we have incurred debt and it hasn't been easy to get out of.
No matter how much I budget I can't stick with it. Something always comes up and it has to be paid or etc. So, my budget constantly goes out the window.
No matter how much I menu plan and frugal shop to try to get our expenses down it just doesn't fly. Please...tell me how these people spend only $250 a month for a family of 7. PLEASE! *Smiles*
On a lighter note I know God is with me but I do feel often disconnected.