Saturday, March 4, 2017

My Heart is Heavy- Transparent Post

Hello friends. I hope you all are well. I need prayer my friends. My heart is heavy!

I need God to give me direction. I feel like I have been praying and praying and there is just no direction. I need direction!

We have to find a way to begin paying towards debt. But Therapy for Hannah is going to cost $240 a month!!!!!!!!!!!!  After we pay our bills, buy food, and gas we have a little more than that leftover.

This money we have been trying to put towards debt but now we will have to relocate it to her therapy for dyslexia (tutoring).

I have tried to cut the groceries as much as I know but it seems like it just keeps getting harder and harder to do.

The dyslexia center wants me to change up Hannah's curricula that we use but we are in March and almost done with our school year and things seem to be going okay. Even though she is behind she was still progressing. The thought of trying to start over and buy new stuff is overwhelming and to be honest we don't have the funds to buy new stuff.

I am having major digestive issues and my anxiety and depression are super heavy at the moment. I don't want to think, clean, read, or even blog. That is when I know I have to push and do it anyway.

I am sorry to be transparent but I need prayer from my blog friends. I truly know you pray when you say you do. I hope this doesn't make you think less of me. I am just weary and truly need prayer and encouragement.

The money thing and debt ways heavy on me. We were debt free before we went to Pastor (we no longer pastor at this time) and due to unforeseen circumstances we have incurred debt and it hasn't been easy to get out of.

No matter how much I budget I can't stick with it. Something always comes up and it has to be paid or etc. So, my budget constantly goes out the window.

No matter how much I menu plan and frugal shop to try to get our expenses down it just doesn't fly. Please...tell me how these people spend only $250 a month for a family of 7. PLEASE! *Smiles*

On a lighter note I know God is with me but I do feel often disconnected.

Chrissy

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  1. Sweet friend, I will pray that God will so clearly provide what you need that you will know it is from Him!

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  2. I am getting ready to take a blog/social media break because I am at the point of overwhelm and need to re-focus. I'm glad I popped in one last time before I shut my laptop down.

    I often wonder about those grocery budgets also. Many times I find that they are just for dinner and not even for seven days! There are only three of us and I find that I am either spending more or choosing to go without in order to meet the grocery budget. Oh, and don't get me started on the monthly budget. I keep telling my money where to go and life has other plans! It is only the 4th and it's already time to scrap or refigure the March budget since we have a van repair.

    I understand how hard it is to keep trusting when you feel like it's one thing after another. I have wondered many times can I handle one more thing. The answer is yes!

    My friend, be strong, courageous, put one foot in front of the other and trust that your needs will be met. I will pray that you find the peace to relax and the strength to trust in Him as He meets your needs.

    Since I will be off line for a bit I will send you a text next week to check on you. Hang in there and I will be sending up prayers!

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  3. Chrissy, I will definitely be praying for you and your family. I haven't been reading your blog very long and I hope you don't mind if I ask you some questions.

    Are you still homeschooling? How old is your daughter that is dyslexic? Can you get tutoring through the public school system? When I was homeschooling in NJ, one family's little boy needed special education and the public school HAD to by law help him at no cost ($ came from property taxes). He went to tutoring a couple of hours a week at the school. I don't know how things are in your state but I would guess that the laws are similar.

    Is it a necessity to use the dyslexic center? I don't know what help is available elsewhere. Maybe there is another option?

    Regardless, if you want to continue using your current curriculum, you should be able to do as you feel best.

    Sorry for all the questions. Trying to help.

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    1. Check with your local schools, because even though you homeschool, many times the public schools have to offer certain things to homeschooled children as well. Prayers for guidance and strength.

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  4. Sweet Chrissy, sending you some hugs and prayers. Remember to cast your cares upon the Lord for He cares for you. Also friend step back and let your husband carry some of this load..He was created to. He was created to have stronger shoulders then you. Just a reminder what Dave Ramsey says to do. Take care of your family needs first.
    Pay your house payment, water, electric, buy the groceries your family needs, take care of your baby girls need. Pay your tenth to God, while working on your emergency fund. After all of this then pay your debts the very minimum payment. Be faithful to God and He will be faithful to you. Stay strong!!!

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    1. I echo - this comment!! Chrissy - I'll certainly be thinking of you - and praying for peace and patience to (continue to) fill your heart and home!! He will make a way when there seems to be no way. {{hugs!}}

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  5. I know how you feel, because I was debt free before finishing college in 2013. I don't know what city you live in, but I have a side job called postmates, and they operate in many cities across the USA. What it is is a food delivery app for any restaurant the customer wants. It's all commission and tips, and you literally work whenever you want as long as you do one delivery per month to stay active. You can do one a month to stay active or work 24/7 and make a killing or anything in between. You have to have a car and car insurance and your phone has to either be an iphone or a droid. Even if you live outside the delivery zone in your city like I do, you can still drive to the zone and accept orders. I always find a quiet parking spot next to a busy area and work on some writing while I wait on my first order. This has been a total godsend, and the money coming in from postmates has saved my butt more than once. There are many other platforms like this such as Favor, Door Dash, Caviar, Instacart (to grocery shop for people only) and there are a lot of apps now that allow people to do handy work for others.

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  6. I know how you feel, because I was debt free before finishing college in 2013. I don't know what city you live in, but I have a side job called postmates, and they operate in many cities across the USA. What it is is a food delivery app for any restaurant the customer wants. It's all commission and tips, and you literally work whenever you want as long as you do one delivery per month to stay active. You can do one a month to stay active or work 24/7 and make a killing or anything in between. You have to have a car and car insurance and your phone has to either be an iphone or a droid. Even if you live outside the delivery zone in your city like I do, you can still drive to the zone and accept orders. I always find a quiet parking spot next to a busy area and work on some writing while I wait on my first order. This has been a total godsend, and the money coming in from postmates has saved my butt more than once. There are many other platforms like this such as Favor, Door Dash, Caviar, Instacart (to grocery shop for people only) and there are a lot of apps now that allow people to do handy work for others.

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  7. Chrissy, that's no good. I will definitely keep you in my prayers and I am sure God will provide an answer. Hang in there and big hugs from Downunder.

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  8. Before you sign up for this expensive therapy, I hope you do some online research on dyslexia and possibly doing her therapy yourself at home. I'm sure this place that tested her means well but I'm guessing they are probably a for profit business?
    I'm in no position to say what is best for Hannah but I do know there are usually more than just one way to improve a situation.
    About your budget, I truly know how hard it is to live on a tight budget. My advice is plan ahead as much as possible, look for different ways to do things, and pray about needs.
    I'm rooting for you!

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  9. Definitely keeping you in my prayers. Also public schools can't deny help in those situations, I would reach out to them and your local library for help. That can help you avoid a lot of the costs. Do you garden? That can also help with the cost of food and places such as Aldi and planning less meats at each meal. We've all faced these struggles but keep your faith as God won't give us more than we can handle :-) blessings,
    Jill

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  10. Thank you all for all your suggestions and prayers!

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  11. My son has dyslexia, and he is just fine, and he didn't need a special school for help. I definitely would listen to some of the other advice, including checking with your local public school to see if you can get help there. Also, not to worry... dyslexic kids often excel at other things, just not at reading. And that's okay too! And yes about the budget - these people who claim they only spend 250 dollars have to be living on a different planet, lol... or reality! My budget includes everything household wise, and for our family of four runs about 700 a month. I've tried to get it lower, but its hard, especially if you want to eat healthy.

    Do the best you can, and trust God for the rest! Hugs and prayers for you my friend!

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